Thursday, November 16, 2023

Clay from the Riverbank

Old Town Square in Prague, from a 2015 visit.

I’ve been thinking about a golem.

The legendary golem that I have in my mind is a huge creature, immensely strong but slightly awkward with only vague features. In the classic way, he has the Hebrew word emét (אֶמֶת, meaning “truth”) inscribed on his forehead. Of the numerous golems in Jewish folklore, the one on my mind is the Prague golem conjured from the clay banks of the Vltava River in Prague in the 16th century by Rabbi Judah Loew ben Bezalel. The Prague golem’s purpose was to protect the ghetto from pogroms, expulsion or slaughter by the Holy Roman Emperor. According to the legend, Rabbi Loew eventually demobilized the golem and stored his body in the attic of the still-standing Old New Synagogue in the Prague ghetto where he could be restored in the event the Jewish community again had need of his protection. Though the golem has had many different purposes in the various stories through the ages, in my imagination he is as close to a Jewish superhero as we’ve had, with my apologies to Moses.

The golem has been on my mind since early October. Following the shocking barbarism perpetrated by Hamas militants on civilian Israelis on October 7, I spent a significant amount of time explaining to well-meaning gentile friends the Palestinian-Israeli conflict, the greater issues of the place of State of Israel in the modern Middle East, the history of the modern State of Israel, how it is that an otherwise unapologetically patriotic third generation American can feel a meaningful attachment to another nation so far away from home and so different from our own, and what my personal feelings are about all of the foregoing. In truth, the process of exploring my own feelings about Israel and the events on and since October 7 has been a valuable one, including a fair bit of catharsis, inner conflict, and uncertainty in the way that thoroughgoing introspection should provide.

My feelings about the existence of the State of Israel are as simple as my feelings about the nature and actions of the Israeli government are complex. I believe the State of Isarel to be a miracle, a blessing to my people, and it is a tremendous source of pride for me as a Jew. And no, that is not an endorsement of any particular action, attitude, or policy. Since the Roman conquest of Judea, Jews have relied on the vicissitudes of non-Jewish sovereign rulers for protection, permission to conduct business, to practice our religion, to express ourselves as a people, and frequently for the continuation of our very existence. The State of Isarel exists now despite significant overt and covert attempts by its neighbors and the British Empire to kill it in the cradle in 1947 and numerous attempts to wash it into the sea over the decades, and thanks to several truly stunning military victories against what should have been overwhelming force. The fact that a modern Jewish nation doesn’t have to ask permission or depend on the whims of a non-Jewish overlord to defend itself and has done so repeatedly through the entirety of its existence is a stunning state of affairs for the Jewish people. My heart swells.

For this reason, woven so firmly through my being, I bristle when gentiles tell me or anyone else what Isarel should or shouldn’t do. For the first time in the post-diaspora world, Jews in Israel, though free to take advice from their allies and those who support them, have precisely zero need to ask anyone else’s permission to do or not do anything. When a gentile expresses dismay at the actions of the Israeli military or its political leaders, I long to tell them that their own complicity throughout history is effectively a total abdication of any right they may have had to influence policy in or by the State of Israel, and I suspect Arabs feel the same way. To be clear, again, this is not an endorsement of Israeli actions or policy; it is an expression of a visceral and cerebral desire to stop the noise from the gentile world about what the State of Israel should and shouldn’t be doing.

Any gentile who tries to explain why shouting “from the river to the sea” isn’t a grossly antisemitic action endorsing the premeditated, shockingly horrific actions of Hamas in their desire to slaughter Jews and wipe them from the earth will get a lecture from me about their own history before I turn on my heels and disregard their views as entirely worthless. I will continue to be conflicted, challenged and made uncomfortable by the actions of the Israeli state, and I will discuss all of it and work to influence it for the better and more humane among people who do not advocate for my or my people’s slaughter.

Whether or not the body of the golem actually lies in the attic of the Old New Synagogue in Prague, the idea of its presence is informative as I consider my own feelings. Someday, perhaps we will have the need to conjure him; but not today. Today we have a modern Jewish nation state that can protect itself from the most evil of wrongdoers and secure its own future. I can only hope, after so many centuries, that Israel uses that power for the good of our people and of humanity generally. As an American, I continue to have faith that I can be a Jew and also be secure in my place in this society despite the recent groundswell of antisemitism here. Here in America, in a sense, we are the golem.

As we say in synagogue, may the State of Israel be a light to the nations. And may its people, its neighbors and all humankind see the way forward to a future of peace of love.

Friday, November 3, 2023

Existentialists Among Us

It’s like raking leaves in a wind storm. “I’m pretty sure I’ve already moved that particular leaf at least twice” I think to myself, “and it may not look like it, but I definitely cleared the leaves from this section of the lawn first thing this morning”. Surely some people, dare I say most people, would find exercises like raking leaves in a wind storm frustrating or even nonsensical. I do not. It makes me smile from the inside out and is a welcome reminder of the absurdity of life and my joy in experiencing it. Ok, I do sometimes find it frustrating when I occasionally work as a landscaper and gardener in my shoulder seasons when the effort can be transactional and the final product does need to meet a certain standard. And then I remember how ridiculously fun it was as a child to spend all day raking the maple leaves in my family’s back yard only to swan dive into a gigantic pile, thrash around in it, and clean it all up again. It is, after all, an existential exercise worth savoring, and it is a consistent experience unaffected by the arc of time through my life. Rake up (or use a leaf blower) a property into nice piles to be transported to the compost pile, look up at the many leaves still left on the branches, hear the breeze well up, and enjoy as yet another golden blanket descends onto the ground.

I do not think that it’s an accident that children, Labrador retrievers, and true practitioners of the ski instructors’ craft are existentialists. Authenticity, shared experience, and personal freedom as a means of seeking life’s true meaning are the hallmarks of existentialism, and thrashing around in a pile of leaves serves that purpose well. Unless you get a rash, which can be unfortunate. I’ll let someone else figure out how to explain scratching an itchy rash in philosophical terms, in the meantime I have a point to make about looking forward to the upcoming season of teaching and coaching in the mountains.

There are components of my working life as an instructor and coach where the objective of any particular activity is specific and measurable. I was an alpine race coach before I was an instructor, and the clock and finish order were a constant focus. I am absolutely certain that the process and experience of being a race athlete and participating in the sport do lend themselves to big picture philosophical thinking, but the necessity of being results focused in the sport does require a certain myopia. Similarly for ski instructors, certification is as close to an objective measure of a professional standard as we have in the profession, albeit a very flawed one. Working with instructors in their pursuit of advanced certification requires an operational approach and clear performance objectives, and having a philosophical overlay comes later with circumspection. It does remind me a bit of studying for and taking the bar exam – just get the thing done and think existentially after. You can watch the dragonflies dancing on the surface of Walden Pond after you pass the bar exam.

Don’t worry, I’m getting to the point.

Among the many things I love about teaching skiing and training other instructors is that we really do not have an objective measure for the success of our guests. If we really are good at what we do, it’s the enjoyment of skiing and of the process of improving and learning together that keeps us all - guests and staff alike - present, engaged, interested, and having a rip-roaring good time. It is truly joyous. When we and our guests experience some component of improved skiing or awareness of skiing in a way that brings us joy, it’s the same joy that a child or an adult feels the first time the slide on snow, and that joy definitely is childlike in nature.

There are instructors who forget that joy is the object, who don’t experience skiing at that level or don’t care to, or simply lack the skills necessary to participate alongside their guests in the pursuit of self-less guidance rather than doctrinal instruction. I feel sorry for them and for their guests. Make no mistake, there is real work involved, real focus, real effort, and real challenges in every phase of our shared endeavor with our guests, but the true prize always remains in focus when we create the right sort of learning environment. I really do believe it to be an existential exercise at its highest level, and I love every minute of it.

In my mind’s eye, I can see my friends and I at the bottom of the Deep Temerity lift at Aspen Highlands on a typically dreamy, uncrowded day, catching our breath after yet another stunningly fun run, smiling that same smile that we had wrapped around our faces as kids in a pile of leaves taller than we are. And laughing. And then doing it all over again.

Ok, this definitely is the fourth time I’ve raked up that leaf. And it’s the second time that bump threw me for a loop and made me cackle. Maybe the wind will stop for a moment and maybe I’ll have a little lighter touch next time on that part of the hill. Either way, I’ll enjoy every minute of it. And come back for more.

Looking West from Aspen, Colorado in October